warwolf1976

It's been I think literal years since I logged in. I got to get back busy! (waves to everyone)

It's pretty much been no secret that I've been fighting depression lately. A year ago I was seeing someone really special and when things got a little difficulty, my lack of esteem and security in who I am came into play and I quit. I quit fighting for her, pretty much gave up. For a year after I stewed on it, contemplated on it and realized my cowardice just cost me what could have been something truly spectacular and nothing like I had felt for a VERY long time. I got back in touch with her. She let me have it on fb messenger and I deserved every word. She pretty much forgave me but is now interested in someone new. Better looking, way skin

I'm miserable. There, I said it. Guess I have been for a long time, but I repress it. I'm not writing this as a pity-grab or anything like that. It's just to get it out. When I was younger, I was more outgoing. I loved having friends around me at all times. Now, I keep to myself. And keep everyone else at arm's length. I do interact through social media, but that's about it. It's like my introverted switch got turned to 11 and stuck there, handle broken off so that it can't be switched back. At work I don't speak that much, at home I don't speak that much just usually clean up after whatever was cooked, do laundry, then disappear into my ro